You know what guys. I never been too happy to talk about myself for many reasons that I seem to think that you may not like me to talk about in the first place. With all the things that been going on in my personal life & all. I came to a point that I need to share with you all.
Not too long ago I did a post on how music saved me do to my depression that I had for years on in & still today it tries to rule my life at points that I can't take it. I try to do so many good deeds that I can do for others that are in worst places then me. I try may best, rarely it seems to do any good. I ether don't rise any thing at all or little of what is my full goal to show my support for them in the end. I guest that I'm trying to run a marathon before a sprint in my opinion. Maybe it seems that I'm just having high hopes for myself is the problem in the end.
At times its hard for me to say things that I like to say to anyone that I meet. I guess that I my Autism that is coming of me. I'm not too sad that we all have to be a perfect deck of cards in box, but we all need to happy that we all are unique. Not odd like those that think that were just trash to the world. We can do so much to help out the people that got worst then us all.
Before I go. There is something that I need to say. On October 27 Linkin Park did a tribute to their front man Chester Bennington. I thought that I just skip it & just stay at Wizard World till it was done for the day, but I don't. I watched the tribute & made sick the whole event. I was just going to say "Fuck this event" & go to bed, but I don't do that at all. I watch it all on YouTube & try not to cry, but I did do that a lot. I cried so much that I was trying to hear Chester's voice, but I didn't hear it at all. About 2/3 in to the tribute. Chester's wife came out to stories of themselves & it was nice to say that we all need to make Chester proud in the end by saying "FUCK DEPRESSION."
I'm just one person that need to happy on what I have now in my life, but that is not as easy as my people think. I try to be part of big groups of things that I like, but I can never seem to fine that one special person to make me the happiest that I ever been. I just hope that one special person finds me soon. I can't wait forever you know.
Not too long ago I did a post on how music saved me do to my depression that I had for years on in & still today it tries to rule my life at points that I can't take it. I try to do so many good deeds that I can do for others that are in worst places then me. I try may best, rarely it seems to do any good. I ether don't rise any thing at all or little of what is my full goal to show my support for them in the end. I guest that I'm trying to run a marathon before a sprint in my opinion. Maybe it seems that I'm just having high hopes for myself is the problem in the end.
At times its hard for me to say things that I like to say to anyone that I meet. I guess that I my Autism that is coming of me. I'm not too sad that we all have to be a perfect deck of cards in box, but we all need to happy that we all are unique. Not odd like those that think that were just trash to the world. We can do so much to help out the people that got worst then us all.
Before I go. There is something that I need to say. On October 27 Linkin Park did a tribute to their front man Chester Bennington. I thought that I just skip it & just stay at Wizard World till it was done for the day, but I don't. I watched the tribute & made sick the whole event. I was just going to say "Fuck this event" & go to bed, but I don't do that at all. I watch it all on YouTube & try not to cry, but I did do that a lot. I cried so much that I was trying to hear Chester's voice, but I didn't hear it at all. About 2/3 in to the tribute. Chester's wife came out to stories of themselves & it was nice to say that we all need to make Chester proud in the end by saying "FUCK DEPRESSION."
I'm just one person that need to happy on what I have now in my life, but that is not as easy as my people think. I try to be part of big groups of things that I like, but I can never seem to fine that one special person to make me the happiest that I ever been. I just hope that one special person finds me soon. I can't wait forever you know.
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